Wednesday, April 29, 2009


So Christina and I saw Obsessed tonight. I have to say that it was good, not great. If that movie taught me anything, it was to never fuck with a black woman’s man. Holy shit, Beyonce was crazy at the end. I was all “daaaay-uuuum” anyway, I really enjoyed it, but didn’t love it. There, Fran, a movie that I saw and didn’t think was the best. Fuck you ^_^

Speaking of Fran, I would like to just take a moment and point out how awesome of a friend she is. Yes, there are times I want to slap her in the face, or yell at her, or lock her and Ryan in two separate rooms, but I know that she would be there in a heartbeat if anything happened to me, or I needed her. And, AND! I know that if we ever fell out of touch the minute we saw each other again it would be the same as always. So here’s to you, Fran *lifts glass*, for being my friend.

Change. Change is sometimes good. Sometimes. There are times where you get a new job, and you meet new people, and you all really get along, and you love your job, and you start hanging out with those new people, and then you start doing really well at your job, and you can get a promotion, and meet the person of your dreams, and get married, and have kids, and have a great life…and it’s all because of that one change. But then there are times where you are on the other side of that change; your best friend, boyfriend/girlfriend, parent/sibling gets that new job, and soon they are so happy with their change in life, that they completely drop you from their life. This would be where change is bad.

You know, every time I’m finally clear headed “It” pops up. It’s not one thing that it’s usually always in my thoughts, and sometimes I dream about it, but once I forget about it, it’s there, mocking me and it doesn’t even know it’s doing it. There are so many things I want to say to it, but I know that if I saw it I wouldn’t…I care too much about it, and the sad part is that it doesn’t care about me. It doesn’t care about anything anymore.

Sometimes I think Jen and I are on the same brainwave, because it always seems when one of us is upset, the other is usually upset about the same thing. This time…it was It. Jen is probably the only person who feels the same thing I’m feeling when it comes to it…I’m getting sick of saying It so I’m stopping now.

Yeah, this wasn’t the blog I expected tonight.

Monday, April 27, 2009

check-a-check-a-check it out.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

zig zag, step, slide.

Body: Full name: Andrew Steven Meissner.
Place of birth: Bayshore, NY.
Date Of Birth: June 21 1989.
Single or taken: single.
Favorite color: I don’t have one.
Want or have kids: eventually want one.
Favorite place to be: ehh…I’m not sure.
Best friend: I have more than one.
How long have you known them: from 3-6 years.
Have you been in love: once.
Favorite Food: salad.
Favorite season: I guess summer.
Hair color: brown.
Eye color: brown hazel.
Siblings: three brothers.
Parents names: Michele and Craig.
Named after anyone: them? No. ^_-
Broken any bones: nope *knock wood*
Some of your closest friends: Fran and Jen.
What are you doing this weekend: working?
Where would you like to be right now: who knows.
Who would you like to be with: *shrug*
Have you had your heart broken: once.
Have you broken someones heart: *shrugs*
Have you told someone you loved them and not meant it: in a relationship? In like middle school.
Do you want to be in love with someone: yeah.
Would you take a bullet for someone: for someone I loved, yeah.
Do you hate anyone: no.
Does anyone hate you: everyone hates how much they love me.
Where would you like to go on vacation: *shrug*
Favorite childhood memory: puh-lease, any memory with me in it was a favorite.
How is your day going? Long.
Did you do anything super fun? Work is fun.
Are you currently texting anyone? No.
What are you listening to? Nothing.
Do you like math? I do.
Are you wearing any jewelry? Necklace, five bracelets, and a watch.
Do you like Hannah Montana? *giggle* boom boom clap.
How many bands do you have as friends on myspace? One?
Do you have a facebook? Werd.
Do you have a socialsplash? Nope.
What's the saddest song you've ever heard? That fucking Christmas shoe song. I hate it.
Does your room need to be cleaned? My room is usually always cleaned.
How old do you think you'll be when you die? I’m a vampire.
Do you want to live to be 120? And look like I’m 25.
Do you own any instruments? A guitar that I never, ever play.
Do you have braces? Nah son
If not, have you ever had them or are you going to? I had them for five years.
Have you ever met someone famous? Yeah.
What color is the floor in whatever room you are in? mauvy blue.
What room are you in? my room.
Do you like this room? It’s the master bedroom, duh.
Do you talk to nonliving objects? Werd.
How many purses do you own? I own a bunch of man purses.
Do you like the ear buds or the old style of earphones? Ear buds
Are your nails painted? Nope.
Do you lie about your age? No.
What are your summer plans? Work. Maybe road trip.
Do you want a puppy? Not at all.
If so, what kind? ____

boom boom clap.

Okay, so I’m kind of addicted to gossip girl. Like fo real real. I love it. I was up til seven the other morning watching it because I don’t know how to make anything last. Nine straight hours of gossip girl. When it was over I felt disappointed because I have nothing to look forward to anymore, but OH MY GOD so good.

In other news I started H&M last week. It’s really fun. I like it a lot. The people are really nice too. I’m still ‘training’ but it’s all good. I’m making 9.70 an hour, and working 15-20 hours a week. Not too bad. I’m also going to keep applying for unemployment and hopefully I won’t get arrested lol. I know I can still collect partial because I’m making less than $400 a week, but I wonder if I can get full and not get in trouble *bites nails*

In other, other news I had a dream last night. Well…I had a few dreams last night but only two stand out in my memory. The first one was I was at a party at Miley Cyrus’s house, and everyone was being really nice to her and to each other but once she left everyone hated each other. I know there was more to it, and I remember yelling at someone in it, but I can’t remember who or why.

The other dream made me laugh. I dreamed that I was at work and it was 7:00 and I used my walkie to tell my manager, Irene that I was taking my half an hour break so I went in the back room, pinched out, and went back to the fitting room, not on break. At 7:20 I used my walkie again and asked if I could take my break. Irene said “aren’t you on it now”? and I was all “Oh my God I forgot” and she was all “what did I tell you about working while you’re on your break”? and then I said something else and finally said “I hope you’re not terribly disappointed with me, Irene” and she laughed and told me to walk the walk of shame.

I woke up with a pounding headache, but giggling.

Last night I got wasted. I haven’t felt that drunk in a long time. Jen, Ryan and I were at Frans house, and Fran was already kind of drunk from the party her and Jen went to, so I wanted to catch up so I downed seven Smirnoff’s and did two shots. The minute I stood up to pee it all hit me. Holy fuck. I was so dizzy and wanted to die. Well, not really; I wanted to throw up and finish playing taboo, but I ended up passing out after I made myself vomit like ten million times. I’m such a bulimic alcoholic.

I don’t think there is anything else I want to say…so peace.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

ya know.

Are you really ready for 111 questions? Maybe.
2) Who's the last person you had sex with? someone's daughter.
3) How is your life right now? Pretty chill.
4) Was your last relationship a mistake? Not at all.
5) Who did you last say “I love you” to? Umm…I don’t remember.
6) Do you regret it? ---
7) Have you ever been depressed? Not horribly.
8) Are you a boy or girl? My penis says boy.
9) What is your relationship status? Single.
11) What did you last eat? A piece of chocolate bunny.
12) Play any sports? My disco stick.
13) Do you bite your nails? Mmmmhmm..
15) Do you have an attitude? See above.
16) Do you like someone? Nope.
18) Out of the following, which do you have most of: faith, strength, hope, wisdom? None.
19) Are you gonna get high later? Nah.
20) Do you hate anyone at the moment? Nope.
21) Do you miss someone? Sometimes.
23) Do you tan a lot? I’m always tan.
24) Have any pets? Yes.
25) How exactly are you feeling? Apathetic.
26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving? Yes…
27) Ever made out in the bathroom? Yeah.
28) Brothers or sisters? Three brothers.
29) Are you scared of spiders? Not really.
31) Do you regret anything from your past? No.
32) What are your plans for this weekend? Don’t know.
33) Do you want to have kids? Eventually.
34) Did you ever kiss someone whose first name starts with M? no.
36) Do you have piercings? Three.
37) Want any more? Eh…
38) Can you spell well? Well.
39) Do you miss anyone from your past? Yes.
40) What are you craving right now? Blooming onion.
41) Ever been to a bonfire party? No.
42) What is something you want to accomplish in the next month or two? Move.
43) Have you ever been on a horse? I think so.
46) Have you ever been cheated on? I don’t think so.
48) What's your favorite thing to do? Love.
49) Would you live with someone without marrying them? Yes.
50) What should you be doing? Nothing.
51) What’s irritating you right now? Nothing.
52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? Once.
53) Does somebody love you? Um..who doesn’t?
54) What is your favorite color? It varies.
55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Yeah.
58) What are you doing right now? This…
59) Do you have any talents? Some.
60) Do you have a good relationship with your parents? I guess.
61) When's the last time you peed? Half an hour ago?
62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you? Who knows.
63) Who was the last person you cried in front of? Brittany.
64) Do you give out second chances too easily? Depends.
65) Is it easier to forgive or forget? Neither, because if you don’t forget you never actually forgive.
66) Is this year the best year of your life? No.
68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked? Yeah.
69) Who was your last text from? Fran.
70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Yeah.
71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? Umm..made a list.
72) If you had the power to change something, what would you change? Things.
73) What is bothering you? Nothing.
74) What did your last text say? Something about something.
75) Do you play the Wii? Sometimes.
76) Are you listening to music right now? Nope.
77) Do you like chinese food? Amen.
78) Do you know your fathers birthday? May 1, 1970.
79) Are You Afraid of the Dark? No.
81) Are you mean? I honestly think I am a really good person.
83) Do you have a couch in your bedroom? Yeah.
84) Do you believe in true love? I believe in love. True love, I don’t know.
85) Do you work? H&M.
86) What's your least favorite part of your life? Stuff.
87) What song describes your life right now? *shrugs*
88) Do you like the outside? No.
89) Are you currently bored? Eh.
90) Do you wanna get married? Maybe.
91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? Sometimes.
92) Are you hungry? No.
93) Have you ever gone outside of the country? No.
94) What makes you happy? Things.
96) Ever been to Alaska? No.
97) Can you access Facebook on your phone? If I want.
98) Do you watch the news? No.
99) What’s your zodiac sign? Technically a Cancer.
100) Do you like Subway? Sometimes.
101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed again? Depends.
103) Do you talk like your friends? I think so.
105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them? Yup.
106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? Yup.
107) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? Mom.
108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? Yeah.
109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? Um…I don’t know. How deep is deep?
110) Favorite lyrics right now? *blank stare*
111) Can you count to one million? Probably not.

Saturday, April 11, 2009


Once again I have found a show that I can not live without. First it was Charmed, then Sex and the City, then Nip Tuck, Now Gossip Girl. I am seriously addicted to Gossip Girl like it is nobody’s business. I keep finding myself yelling at my laptop screen because Serena and Ben obviously belong together, and Blair and Chuck kind of need each other, but they all keep breaking up then hooking up then date then break up again. One might say that if you find yourself on an emotional rollercoaster watching a television show, that means only one of two things: you have no life, or the show is amazing. I’m going with the latter on this one. I rented the first season from the library and I watched the entire thing in one day. I stayed up til 5 in the morning because I needed to know what would happen, and now I am trying very hard not to buy any more episodes from the second season on itunes. I bought the first three but I need to watch more! I need to know what is happening!!! OH MY GOD!

In other news, I start work soon. Tuesday. Yaay. Actually, Linda just texted me and told me that sally’s is still hiring. I think I’ll ask my new manager if it would be okay if I got a second job, make sure it doesn’t interfere with me working there. It would be cool to work with Linda again ^_^

In other, other news I have my interview at F.I.T in four days!! FOUR DAYS!!! I still need to do two pictures for my portfolio though. Eek. I’m not nervous at all, and I have no desire to draw the last two pictures. I actually started both, but I don’t know if I like them. Well I got to get my act together and finish this fucker.

Okay, I think I will spend another $3 and buy another episode…

Friday, April 10, 2009


oh and explain to me, please, how beasts can get girlfriends, but I can't...just throwing that out there.


ya know...sometimes change can be a good thing, but it sucks when it doesn't end well...

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

I almost peed myself at the end:


Operator: 911 emergencies.
Boy: Yeah I need some help.
Operator: What’s the matter?
Boy: With my math.
Operator: With your mouth?
Boy: No with my math. I have to do... More »
Operator: 911 emergencies.
Boy: Yeah I need some help.
Operator: What’s the matter?
Boy: With my math.
Operator: With your mouth?
Boy: No with my math. I have to do it. Will you help me?
Operator: Sure. Where do you live?
Boy: No with my math.
Operator: Yeah I know. Where do you live though?
Boy: No, I want you to talk to me on the phone.
Operator: No I can’t do that. I can send someone else to help you.
Boy: Okay.
Operator: What kind of math do you have that you need help with?
Boy: I have take aways.
Operator: Oh you have to do the take aways.
Boy: Yeah.
Operator: Alright, what’s the problem?
Boy: Um, you have to help me with my math.
Operator: Okay. Tell me what the math is.
Boy: Okay. 16 take away 8 is what?
Operator: You tell me. How much do you think it is?
Boy: I don’t know, 1.
Operator: No. How old are you?
Boy: I’m only 4.
Operator: 4!
Boy: Yeah.
Operator: What’s another problem, that was a tough one.
Boy: Um, oh here’s one. 5 take away 5.
Operator: 5 take away 5 and how much do you think that is?
Boy: 5.
Woman: Johnny what do you think you’re doing?!
Boy: The policeman is helping me with my math.
Woman: What did I tell you about going on the phone?
Operator: It’s the mother…
Boy: You said if I need help to call somebody.
Woman: I didn’t mean the police.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Roses have thorns they say.

Ah! So I had all these things jumping around in my head that I wanted to blog about, but figures. Once I actually sit down and start writing a blog I forget. And figures. Once I get out of my weird sleeping pattern, I take a nap from 6-10 which will make me fall back to sleep probably at like 4 in the morning. Fuck me.

Lets start with the most important I guess:
Remember that time I had a job, and I made money, and I bought pretty things? Well that time is here again. Yes. Finally, after almost two months of sitting at home and doing nothing, Andrew snagged a job. I am not an employee at H&M *cheers*. Start Tuesday, April 14th. 12-5. The only sucky thing is that I’m part time and part timers only average fifteen hours a week. I’m use to working about forty. The good thing is I will be making $9.57 an hour. She told me that and I had to catch myself before my jaw dropped, because at KB I started at only $6.50. God, this is why I love the mall.

I went in today to do the paperwork and I met all the managers and the girl that will be training me, Dana. I have the honor of being her first trainee. She’s pretty cute too so I’m looking forward to being trained by her. I was told that I would start next Tuesday so on my way out I went up to Dana and was all *smiles* “see you next Tuesday” and then I giggled to myself because I remembered what “see you next Tuesday” was. The things Jen teaches you at KB.

I can’t wait to make money again. Since I will only be working fifteen hours a week, I think I can still collect unemployment which would be tres tres cool because that means I would be making about $300 a week, and roughly $1000 a month. I could just become a cop and make $100 every other week, but the mall seems cooler.

I’m going to turn into Jen, I know it. I’ll be in the mall so I will be around all these fashionable stores. I like fashion, so I will probably be shopping at these fashionable stores (especially now that I will be getting a 25% discount at H&M), so Andrew will be starting a crash diet so he can look even better.

Besides clothes, there are a bunch of other things I wanna buy. I want to get:

-new Ipod (maybe an ipod touch). $400
-New cell phone
-Drawing tablet for my laptop $200
-New, bigger pack of markers (the 150 count) $300-$400

To get these things, However, I have to start saving money. I also want to go places. I started thinking about things I want to do for my birthday. I came to the conclusion that I want to go to Lips. ( It’s a Drag dinner theater and it looks like so much Fun. Christina and I have been talking about going to a drag show forever. I remembered this place while watching Connie and Carla with her this morning, did some research, and decided I wanted to go here. It’s like $50 a person though, which I wouldn’t care about because Jen reminded me that they all love me enough to spend that, but then we need train tickets, and probably subway rides, so figure another $30 or so. Now we’re talking about $80-$100 a person and I would feel really, really bad if I made them pay that much. Maybe I can get a big group together and have an actual party there, not just go. It might be cheaper. Hmm.. Must look into that.

Last night I slept over Christina’s house. I finally, FINALLY finished a self portrait I was drawing and I text her a picture of it. Then we were talking and she told me to come over. Her entire family was away so naturally one thing led to the other and ya know…we watched Baby Mama and drank strawberry daiquiris and wine, played Wii and passed out. I also tried a really, really good cigarette last night. It was something Black and it was soooo good. Like makes me want to take up smoking good. This morning I actually planned to go home early, but I ended up staying til three. She made me breakfast (which I offered to help but she refused), took a shower in the basement (where I thought I would be manly and use head and shoulders shampoo but got giddy at the Japanese cherry blossom body scrub), watched Connie and Carla, and played more Wii.

I’m almost positive there was a million more things I wanted to say, but I guess I will have to put them in another blog. Peace out.

AAAH!!! OH MY GOD!! This is my 100th blog post. *cheers* I should win a cooler or something. Mmm…beach. I want it to be summer.